A Great Man!!

I would be remiss if I didn't mention the passing of our beloved prophet President Hinckley. What a wonderful man he was. I will always remember how when he spoke you felt like he was talking directly to you, his sense of humor, his testimony and the wonderful example he was to all of us. It is sad to think that he will no longer be here. He truly did so much for the church. We as members have been so blessed to be led by such a wonderful and rightous man. But even in my sadness I smile at the thought of him reuniting with his sweet wife who he adored and missed so much and know that he was welcomed into Heaven by the arms of our Savior. What a sweet and awesome reunion it must have been. My life has truly been touched by this great man and I feel so blessed to have been able to learn so much from him. His strength and testimony live on through the great members of our church.

Christmas and New Years

We had a wonderful Holiday season. Christmas Eve and morning was spent at our house with my parents and sister. The kids were spoiled and we had a great time playing Wii and games. We spent Christmas Eve with Troys family and New Years Eve there too. Troy is a self proclaimed Pyro so the evening demanded fireworks, it was freezing cold and so us women stayed inside, but the kids loved it and of course Troy did too.

We now return you to your regular scheduled life.....

Wow-it is hard to believe that it has been so long since I have blogged. Life this fall was crazy and now we are finally settling back down into normalcy. In August Troy and I began feeling that he was to start looking for another job. After months of being totally emotionally drained from all the drama at his company and truly dreading going to work everyday we felt that it was time for a change. We have always wanted to move back east and thought that this was our chance to do so, but the job market wasn't great in the areas we were looking at. We aren't ones to just not have a job so we felt like we had to stay with this company until we could find something else, but after much fasting and prayer we felt that we were suppose to just take the leap of faith and quit. So he did at the end of September. Around the same time our Landlords called to tell us that they were going to sell our house. So now we have no job and no place to live-EEK!! I was a nervous wreck. We toyed with the idea of starting our own company which has always been a dream of Troy's and made arrangements to live with some family while we got it up and running. But of course the just when you think you have a plan the Lord shows you what is the real plan. In the middle of October he went for an interview with a company that does marketing-Troy has always worked in Healthcare software so this was a new direction for him. But he received a wonderful job offer that we are so grateful for. He loves his new job and learning a new market. But there was still the dilemna of where to live. We were having a hard time finding a house that was in Tatis school boundries and were going to give it up and move to another city, when just 2 weeks before we had to move a house came on the market right in our price range in the neighborhood that we really wanted to be in. YEAH!! we were so excited and jumped on it right away. We moved in on the 1st of December and are so happy here.

We are currently discussing all our adoption options and hope to move forward in the New Year. I will post more about that later.

Jenn Needs.......

$20,000 to get this adoption rolling! I did the google search Jenn Needs-and it was pretty funny. So this is what according to Google I need......

1. To Grow up and Deal-(well maybe, but I try!)
2. To get her Groove Back(I didn't know I had a groove, but heck if its lost I sure would like to find it)
3. Post office hours
4.A healthy dose of sweet magical caffeine (A truer statement I could not find) Vanilla Coke=YUM!!!
5. a puppy(now I have been trying to convince my husband of this for awhile-he doesn't buy it)
6. A vacation!! (Don't we all??)
7. Help Filing out Capital Expense Report????
8. To buy a horse(now that is something that I could get my husband to buy)
9. Go to the Post Office(how do they know this? I really need to send out some stuff)
and finally....
10. Needs a HOT ROD!! (Well anything would be better than my minivan, but what I really NEED is an BMW X5-that sounds fantastic!!!)

So there you have it-all the things I didn't know I needed!! Haha-that was fun! You should try it

Summer Reading

So I found this fantastic website www.bookmooch.com I LOVE IT!!! The other night I spent hours on there adding my books and looking up books that I wanted to read. I then mooched 7. Yes, 7. I love to read and am always looking for a good book. 3 came over the weekend and it is only Tuesday and I have already finished them. I know, it is a bit obsessive, but I can't help it. Because I obsess and read an entire book in one day I try very hard not to have too many books that I want to read, cause I tend to get so involved that I ignore everything and everyone around me. It is a bad habit of mine. But I figure summer is a great time to read, the kids can play outside and I can sit on the porch and read. If you haven't checked it out do, and if you have a great book recommendation I would love to hear it!! Of course I am just counting down the days until Harry Potter comes out-that will be several days of doing nothing-and I can hardly wait!!!

Graduation, Summer, and Coming Clean

Wow-so I am a horrible blogger!!! The end of May was crazy with Kindergarten Graduation, our 8th anniversary, my best friends wedding and hubby's family visiting. It took up a lot of time and kept me busy, which was a good thing.

My cute daughter had Kindergarten Graduation. It was so adorable and I cried like a baby. Is that normal? Probably, it is the mom thing to do. I just can't believe that she has finished her first year of school. They grow up so fast.

We celebrated our 8th anniversary. We went to dinner and did some shopping. Nothing super exciting but it was fun to do out without the kids. We went to an Asian Place up at the Gateway that was fairly good. It seems like just yesterday we were married. Time sure does go by faster as you get older.

My husbands family was in town for 2 weeks to celebrate the birth of his sister's baby. He is a cutie and so sweet and fun to hold. Totally adds to the baby hunger we already feel. I am of course super excited for my sil, but still found I was a bit jealous. I wondered if it was totally wrong for me to feel that way. Of course I love him to pieces and am so happy for their cute family. Summer is here and I am excited to slow down a bit and enjoy time with the kids, of course they want to be doing something everyday, so I am trying to come up with activities for us to do.

We recently decided that I should wean off of my antidepressant. Yes, I suffered from fairly severe post partum depression and have been on meds for just over 3 yrs. I always felt like it was something to be ashamed of and I never ever told anyone that I was taking medication for my depression. It just didn't fit with the perfect mother image I felt that I had to live up to. Of course it is all in my head and I am sure that pressure I put on myself didn't help. I digress-anyways, as of late I felt that my meds were not as effective as they used to be and I was feeling a lot of side effects that I had never felt before. I felt horrible physically and no matter what dr. I went to could not come up with a reason why I was gaining weight, having hot flashes, headaches and night sweats. I was tired all the time and completely sick of feeling that way. Luckily a good friend of mine, who knows about my depression, suggested I look at the side effects of my antidepressant. So I did a little research, came across many support groups for people who have been or are currently on this particular drug. Lo and behold, so many of the things I have been feeling many others have also experienced while on this drug. Back when I was so depressed I didn't bother to research the drug, I just wanted to desperately to feel better, but I am so glad I did now. My hubby and I made the decision, that although the withdrawal from it could be severe, that in the long run I would be better off if I stopped taking it. It has been rough, but I have been incredibly lucky to not have some of the severe withdrawals that many others have had. I have now been off for about a month and I actually feel better than I have in a long long time. The headaches, night sweats and hot flashes have all gone and I find I have so much more energy. Obviously what works for me is not what is right for everyone, but I glad that I made this choice for me and my family.

No news on the adoption front. We haven't been able to save a lot of money, but we are trying I guess that that is what is important. I am impatient and long to hold my baby in my arms, to get her home safe and sound where she can be loved and adored. I know all adoptive parents feel this way, and waiting is part of the process. But it is still so hard. Most of our family have been nothing but supportive of our decision and we are truly grateful for that. My mil is coming around, although she seems to think that just because she wasn't able to get anymore after her 3rd that we just need to accept that we might be done. That is hard to take, and I truly hope that by the time we are ready to go pick up our sweetie that she will be fully supportive. Obviously adoption isn't for everyone, but we feel it is what is right for our family and feel that the Lord has led here for a reason. I just wish more people could understand that what is right for them may not be what is right for us and that is okay. Alright I am done with my soapbox moment. Thank you for the kind comments I receive-I will try to update more often.

My Baby is 4

Wow, it is hard to believe that my baby just turned 4 yrs old this week. We had a fun party at the park and invited our friends and family. He got all kinds of super hero toys and loves to save the day. I realized that I only have a year left before he off to school with his sister. It makes me sad. I didn't expect to have all my kids in school before I was 30. I had hoped to have little ones to take care of until I was at least 35. Maybe I still will.
Adoption is a long and hard road. I sometimes feel so frustrated because I am just ready to have our sweet baby home. We went off birth control 3 years ago. Never in a million years did I expect to still be waiting for the baby that we both know is suppose to be a part of our family. Both of us knew that we were suppose to have another child, and that is why even though our son was only 9 months old, we look that leap. It was scary, he was still a baby. I know that we are going through this for a reason and I think that if we had not had these struggles than we never would have been led to the path of adoption. I am so grateful for that. Adoption is so beautiful and amazing and I can't wait to be apart of it. So heres to hoping that we can save the money quickly and get this show on the road. Patience is a virtue that I don't have.