Wednesday, December 19, 2007

We now return you to your regular scheduled life.....

Wow-it is hard to believe that it has been so long since I have blogged. Life this fall was crazy and now we are finally settling back down into normalcy. In August Troy and I began feeling that he was to start looking for another job. After months of being totally emotionally drained from all the drama at his company and truly dreading going to work everyday we felt that it was time for a change. We have always wanted to move back east and thought that this was our chance to do so, but the job market wasn't great in the areas we were looking at. We aren't ones to just not have a job so we felt like we had to stay with this company until we could find something else, but after much fasting and prayer we felt that we were suppose to just take the leap of faith and quit. So he did at the end of September. Around the same time our Landlords called to tell us that they were going to sell our house. So now we have no job and no place to live-EEK!! I was a nervous wreck. We toyed with the idea of starting our own company which has always been a dream of Troy's and made arrangements to live with some family while we got it up and running. But of course the just when you think you have a plan the Lord shows you what is the real plan. In the middle of October he went for an interview with a company that does marketing-Troy has always worked in Healthcare software so this was a new direction for him. But he received a wonderful job offer that we are so grateful for. He loves his new job and learning a new market. But there was still the dilemna of where to live. We were having a hard time finding a house that was in Tatis school boundries and were going to give it up and move to another city, when just 2 weeks before we had to move a house came on the market right in our price range in the neighborhood that we really wanted to be in. YEAH!! we were so excited and jumped on it right away. We moved in on the 1st of December and are so happy here.

We are currently discussing all our adoption options and hope to move forward in the New Year. I will post more about that later.

Thursday, June 28, 2007

Jenn Needs.......

$20,000 to get this adoption rolling! I did the google search Jenn Needs-and it was pretty funny. So this is what according to Google I need......

1. To Grow up and Deal-(well maybe, but I try!)
2. To get her Groove Back(I didn't know I had a groove, but heck if its lost I sure would like to find it)
3. Post office hours
4.A healthy dose of sweet magical caffeine (A truer statement I could not find) Vanilla Coke=YUM!!!
5. a puppy(now I have been trying to convince my husband of this for awhile-he doesn't buy it)
6. A vacation!! (Don't we all??)
7. Help Filing out Capital Expense Report????
8. To buy a horse(now that is something that I could get my husband to buy)
9. Go to the Post Office(how do they know this? I really need to send out some stuff)
and finally....
10. Needs a HOT ROD!! (Well anything would be better than my minivan, but what I really NEED is an BMW X5-that sounds fantastic!!!)

So there you have it-all the things I didn't know I needed!! Haha-that was fun! You should try it

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Summer Reading

So I found this fantastic website www.bookmooch.com I LOVE IT!!! The other night I spent hours on there adding my books and looking up books that I wanted to read. I then mooched 7. Yes, 7. I love to read and am always looking for a good book. 3 came over the weekend and it is only Tuesday and I have already finished them. I know, it is a bit obsessive, but I can't help it. Because I obsess and read an entire book in one day I try very hard not to have too many books that I want to read, cause I tend to get so involved that I ignore everything and everyone around me. It is a bad habit of mine. But I figure summer is a great time to read, the kids can play outside and I can sit on the porch and read. If you haven't checked it out do, and if you have a great book recommendation I would love to hear it!! Of course I am just counting down the days until Harry Potter comes out-that will be several days of doing nothing-and I can hardly wait!!!

Thursday, June 7, 2007

Graduation, Summer, and Coming Clean


Wow-so I am a horrible blogger!!! The end of May was crazy with Kindergarten Graduation, our 8th anniversary, my best friends wedding and hubby's family visiting. It took up a lot of time and kept me busy, which was a good thing.

My cute daughter had Kindergarten Graduation. It was so adorable and I cried like a baby. Is that normal? Probably, it is the mom thing to do. I just can't believe that she has finished her first year of school. They grow up so fast.
We celebrated our 8th anniversary. We went to dinner and did some shopping. Nothing super exciting but it was fun to do out without the kids. We went to an Asian Place up at the Gateway that was fairly good. It seems like just yesterday we were married. Time sure does go by faster as you get older.
My husbands family was in town for 2 weeks to celebrate the birth of his sister's baby. He is a cutie and so sweet and fun to hold. Totally adds to the baby hunger we already feel. I am of course super excited for my sil, but still found I was a bit jealous. I wondered if it was totally wrong for me to feel that way. Of course I love him to pieces and am so happy for their cute family. Summer is here and I am excited to slow down a bit and enjoy time with the kids, of course they want to be doing something everyday, so I am trying to come up with activities for us to do.
We recently decided that I should wean off of my antidepressant. Yes, I suffered from fairly severe post partum depression and have been on meds for just over 3 yrs. I always felt like it was something to be ashamed of and I never ever told anyone that I was taking medication for my depression. It just didn't fit with the perfect mother image I felt that I had to live up to. Of course it is all in my head and I am sure that pressure I put on myself didn't help. I digress-anyways, as of late I felt that my meds were not as effective as they used to be and I was feeling a lot of side effects that I had never felt before. I felt horrible physically and no matter what dr. I went to could not come up with a reason why I was gaining weight, having hot flashes, headaches and night sweats. I was tired all the time and completely sick of feeling that way. Luckily a good friend of mine, who knows about my depression, suggested I look at the side effects of my antidepressant. So I did a little research, came across many support groups for people who have been or are currently on this particular drug. Lo and behold, so many of the things I have been feeling many others have also experienced while on this drug. Back when I was so depressed I didn't bother to research the drug, I just wanted to desperately to feel better, but I am so glad I did now. My hubby and I made the decision, that although the withdrawal from it could be severe, that in the long run I would be better off if I stopped taking it. It has been rough, but I have been incredibly lucky to not have some of the severe withdrawals that many others have had. I have now been off for about a month and I actually feel better than I have in a long long time. The headaches, night sweats and hot flashes have all gone and I find I have so much more energy. Obviously what works for me is not what is right for everyone, but I glad that I made this choice for me and my family.
No news on the adoption front. We haven't been able to save a lot of money, but we are trying I guess that that is what is important. I am impatient and long to hold my baby in my arms, to get her home safe and sound where she can be loved and adored. I know all adoptive parents feel this way, and waiting is part of the process. But it is still so hard. Most of our family have been nothing but supportive of our decision and we are truly grateful for that. My mil is coming around, although she seems to think that just because she wasn't able to get anymore after her 3rd that we just need to accept that we might be done. That is hard to take, and I truly hope that by the time we are ready to go pick up our sweetie that she will be fully supportive. Obviously adoption isn't for everyone, but we feel it is what is right for our family and feel that the Lord has led here for a reason. I just wish more people could understand that what is right for them may not be what is right for us and that is okay. Alright I am done with my soapbox moment. Thank you for the kind comments I receive-I will try to update more often.

Thursday, May 3, 2007

My Baby is 4

Wow, it is hard to believe that my baby just turned 4 yrs old this week. We had a fun party at the park and invited our friends and family. He got all kinds of super hero toys and loves to save the day. I realized that I only have a year left before he off to school with his sister. It makes me sad. I didn't expect to have all my kids in school before I was 30. I had hoped to have little ones to take care of until I was at least 35. Maybe I still will.
Adoption is a long and hard road. I sometimes feel so frustrated because I am just ready to have our sweet baby home. We went off birth control 3 years ago. Never in a million years did I expect to still be waiting for the baby that we both know is suppose to be a part of our family. Both of us knew that we were suppose to have another child, and that is why even though our son was only 9 months old, we look that leap. It was scary, he was still a baby. I know that we are going through this for a reason and I think that if we had not had these struggles than we never would have been led to the path of adoption. I am so grateful for that. Adoption is so beautiful and amazing and I can't wait to be apart of it. So heres to hoping that we can save the money quickly and get this show on the road. Patience is a virtue that I don't have.

Friday, April 13, 2007

ITS OFFICIAL!!!!!!

Okay so I am seriously not good at keeping up on this thing. But we have officially decided to adopt from Vietnam!!! We are really excited. It has taken us at least a year to finally be on the same page, but here we are and we couldn't be more excited. It really came down to a money issue with my sweet husband. He just didn't know where we would get the money. So we made a little deal-- If we can save up about half of the money than we will go ahead and start with the paperwork. He just doesn't want to get to far in and than not have the money to finish. I am already on it and have $1000 in our adoption fund!!! We are going to sell his motorcycle and I am going to start as a consultant for Lia Sophia jewelry. I will post a link to that once I get my site up and running. The kids are so excited and put all of their spare change in our adoption jar. It is cute.


I am still researching agencies, but I am pretty sure that I have it narrowed down to 2 that we will continue to think on and hopefully make a decision. If anyone has advice on agencies we would love to hear it.


We recently went on vacation to DisneyWorld and had a fantastic time. That is the reason I haven't posted in such a long time.

Monday, February 19, 2007

Craziness...

So much has been going on in my state these last few weeks. So many tragedies. First a house in my ward blew up. Yes, blew up, and the young mother and gas man were killed. This really hit home as this couple had just moved into our ward and it really did effect all of us. She left behind her husband and 18 month old daughter. It was so sad to watch all the newscasts and then see them at church. I can't even begin to imagine what that would be like. Then just a few days later a family in SLC was hit by a drunk driver and it killed half of this family, and yet the dad remained so composed and offered forgiveness and love to the boy who had killed his family. And last but not least a shooting at a local mall killing 5 people. Where is all this craziness coming from??? It really makes you look at life and realize that anything can happen. It just really made me want to hold my kids a little bit tighter and make sure I tell my husband that I love him. A lady in my ward really put it into prespective when she said that just that day that the house blew up she had been complaining to a friend that the new entertainment center she just ordered was the wrong color, and not 30 minutes later she looks out her window to see this couples home blow up. They lost all of their material posessions and his wife. It made her realize that the issue with her furniture was so miniscule in comparison. I find myself feeling this same way. Looking at the bigger picture and realizing the truly important things in life. It is my family. They are the world to me and I can't even begin to imagine what my life would be like if I were to suddenly lose one of them-or half of them. It is a sobering thought, and yet I gain such strength from the examples of these families who have lost so much and yet still have such faith and strength to go on. The compassion and forgiveness that they give to those who are responsible for their pain is amazing to me, and really inspires me to be a better mother, wife and person. I guess if anything good can come of these tragedies it is that others will try to be better and show more love and compassion, and hopefully that can impact someone else for the better.

Monday, February 5, 2007

Sir, will you please step out of your car?????

Okay, so we are driving home from church yesterday and are just about to pull into our neighborhood when the lights go on and we get pulled over. Our registration sticker had fallen off. So we give the officer all of the info, showing that yes the car is registered and insured. So we are waiting and he comes over and asks my husband to please step out of the vehicle. In November he had gotten pulled over for a headlight being out-I think our cops have nothing better to do--and of course it was when we were moving and it was only a 5 min. drive to our new house but the kids weren't in carseats. So he gets a ticket. Well I tried to pay it over the Christmas break, but the court told me to try and get the headlight fixed and then they would take that off of the ticket. Well T's car is a piece of poo and there is a short in the headlight and has to be professionally repaired. So in January we get a notice that because we didn't pay it is now doubled and if we don't pay the $300 bucks they will put a warrant out for his arrest. So this brings me back to yesterday. This warrant was just issued 3 days before. Yup-you got it they were going to arrest my husband for having a headlight out. He could pay the bail in cash or go with him to jail. A great way to end our sunday. So he goes to the bank and pulls out $350 dollars so he doesn't get arrested. The officer than says "I am glad that you could do this cause I have never taken anyone to jail in a suit" Needless to say T was not very happy. So my husband-the hardened criminal that he is-now has a police record.

Friday, February 2, 2007

What is Embryo Adoption????

I figured that there are probably not a whole lot of people out there who know much about embryo adoption or what it is. So I thought I would try to explain it. There are many people who suffer from infertility and go through IVF in order to create their family. Many times when they are done having their children they will have left over embryos. Most of the time these embies just stay frozen and then are later destroyed. There are a few places now that offer the option of donating those embryos to other couples who cannot get pregnant with their own egg or sperm. This gives a couple the chance to be pregnant with their adopted child. It is pretty neat. Of course many people say well that is kinda weird, why do that instead of just adopting or trying IVF yourselves? Well for us it was the fact that my eggs are really bad. IVF would probably end up costing a lot of money for nothing. We also have been blessed with two children on our own already and don't feel that going through all the steps of fertility treatments is for us. It is also a lot less expensive. Check out the http://embryodonation.org to find out more. It is really new and not a lot of people even know that this is an option. We are seriously considering this option for our family.

Thursday, February 1, 2007

New to Blogging

Well this is my first ever adventure into the world of blogging. We are starting the process of adoption. We are looking into 2 options: Embryo adoption or international(eventually). Not only am I a mom to superman, but a princess too. They keep me busy and entertained. Thanks for stopping by.